Warning: Unpleasant post up ahead..


I HATE THOSE JERKS WHO "SEDUCED" MY DAD TO DRINK BEER. ALL EFFING JERKS. OF CUS, THEY DIDN'T THINK ABOUT THE CONSEQUENCE IF MY DAD IS DRUNK. ALL THEY THINK WAS HAVING FUN, WHILE THEY'RE SOBER
&WHEN HE'S DRUNK WHO GET ALL THIS BULLSHIT &HAVE TO CLEAR THE MESS? ME &MY MUM. BUT MY MUM WASN'T THAT SCARED. WHAT ABOUT ME? DID MY DAD EVER THINK HOW I WOULD FEEL.
N-E-V-E-R, NEVER.
YESTERDAY MY DAD WAS REAL DRUNK. I COULD HERE HIM SCREAMING AT THE GROUND FLOOR, WHEN I'M AT THE THIRTEENTH FLOOR.
WHEN HE CAME BACK, HE WAS LIKE SOME CRAZY PERSON. TO ME MORE LIKE A MONSTER.
I DIDN'T DARE TO EVEN LEAVE THE BED. I DIDN'T DARE TO EVEN LOOK AT HIM. I DIDN'T DARE TO GO OUT OF THE ROOM OR LOOK DIRECTLY OUT INTO THE ROOM.
HE CAME TO ME, &I SHOUTED TO HIM. COUNT HIM LUCKY, I COULD ALMOST PUNCH OR GIVE HIM A HARD SLAP TO WAKE HIM UP.
THANKS TO MY DAD, I MANAGED TO SLEEP IN PEACE AT AROUND 3 PLUS THIS MORNING. &I HAD ABOUT 3 HOURS OF SLEEP TODAY, CUS HE WOULD SUDDENLY SCREAM, WHICH WOULD MAKE MY HEART THUMP FASTER, &CUS ME NOT TO SLEEP IN PEACE. LUCKY THAT I SURVIVE TODAY, WITH THE CAN OF NESCAFE, OR ELSE I WILL SCOLD THE SHIT OUT OF HIM.
&TILL NOW, I DON'T TALK TO HIM IN A NICE TONE. OR I DON'T WANNA EVEN LOOK AT HIM.

I HATE MY DAD! ALL HE CARE IS ABOUT HIS BEER.
SOME FRIENDS OF MINE, ARE ENVIOUS THAT I'VE SUCHA GOOD DAD, &ASKED ME TO TREAT HIM NICELY. "YEA". I GET ALL I WANT, BECAUSE HE'S GUILTY. HE THINKS THAT BUYING ALL THOSE CAN CLEAR HIS GUILT.

NOW I DON'T WANNA EVEN HELP HIM SAVE MONEY. I WILL BUY WHATEVER I WANT FREELY. I WILL RENT MANYMANY VCDS OVER THE HOLIDAY. I'LL WATCH ALL THE MOVIE WHICH I WANT. I JUST WANT HIM TO WASTE HIS MONEY. SINCE HE HAD SO MUCH MONEY TO SPENT ON BEER. I THINK SPENDING ALL HIS BEER'S MONEY ON MY STUFF, IT'LL BE A MUCH BETTER CHOICE.
I SWEAR I'M GOING TO STUDY HARD, I WANNA GO ABROAD TO STUDY. AT LEAST I WON'T SEE HIM DRUNK FOR THAT PERIOD OF TIME.
&IF HE DRINKS AGAIN, I MIGHT WANNA LEAVE HOME TOO.
MY DAD DRINKING HABIT SUCKS!

HE WILL ALWAYS FEEL GUILTY, CUS HE PUNCHED ME WHEN I WAS BACK IN PRI 3 WHEN HE WAS DRUNK. FROM THAT FATEFUL NIGHT. I NEVER CALL HIM DAD, &I NEVER WILL.
WHEN I WAS MUCH YOUNGER, THERE WAS ONCE HE WAS SO BADLY DRUNK THAT THERE WAS BLOOD ALL OVER HIM. DUE TO MY AGE &HE DIDN'T DID ANYTHING TO ME. SO I WASN'T REALLY SCARED.

I SWEAR IF TOMORROW HE'S DRUNK TOMORROW &COME TO FETCH ME FROM TUITION. I'LL RUN ONTO THE ROAD, &LET SOME VEHICLES COME KNOCK ME DOWN. SEEING HIM DRUNK, ALWAYS MAKE ME WANNA DIE..

NOW HE'S ANGRY AT THE FACT THAT I'M ANGRY WITH HIM. SO WHAT. DID HE KNOW THANKS TO HIM I HAD A SLEEPLESS NIGHT. DID HE KNOW I CRIED THE WHOLE NIGHT. DID HE KNOW I WAS SO SCARED, THAT I WOULDN'T DARE STEPFOOT ON THE FLOOR OR LEAVE MY BLANKET..
HE DOESN'T &WILL NEVER REALISE.

ALL HE CARE IS BEER BEER &BEER.
DOES HE EVER CARE ABOUT MY HEALTH. I TOLD HIM THAT I HAD DIFFICULT IN BREATHING AT TIMES (it just occured today). WHAT DID HE DO, DID HE EVER BRING ME TO THE DOCTOR?
N-O. NO!
HE ONLY THINKS THAT I'M MAKING THIS UP, OR TRYING TO TAKE MC.
I GIVE UP ALRIGHT. ANYWAY, I MIGHT BE EVEN HAPPIER IF I GO TO HEAVEN.

FOR X'MAS WISH. I DON'T HOPE FOR PRESENTS. BUT MY DAD KICK OFF HIS DRINKING HABIT...


SORRY LIA &HOON. I THINK I SCARE THEM. CUS I SUDDENLY CRIED IN FRONT OF THEM TODAY. THANKS FOR YOUR SWEET, LIA.




I HATE BEING ACCUSED WRONGLY. I REMEMBERED I TOLD HER THERE WAS A COMMITTEE MEETING, &WAS EVEN SURPRISE THAT SHE NEVER TURN OUT. SO ISN'T THAT AS GOOD AS I NEVER SAY?
CHER YOU NORMALLY SCOLD ME I DON'T MIND, CUS I WAS INDEED MISCHEVIOUS. BUT DURING BAND YOU SCOLDED ME FOR NOT TELLING HER, WHEN I DID.
SUCKS ALRIGHT!




CAN'T IT BE NEXT YEAR?
CAN YOU PROMISE THAT YOUR GOD-SIS SHUT THEIR BIG FAT ASS MOUTH? YOU ALWAYS SAY YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO STOP THEM CUS IT'S THEIR MOUTH.
NOW, I ASK YOU, PEOPLE TOLD YOU NASTY THING IN FRONT OR BACK OF YOU. YOU EXPERIENCED IT. &OBVIOUSLY YOU WAS REALLY SAD.
SO WHAT ABOUT ME? AM I NOT HURT? WHENEVER THEY SAY NASTY COMMENTS. YOU KNOW HOW IT HURT MY DIGNITY. I'M HUMAN TOO. I'VE DIGNITY. MY HEART CRYING. DO YOU KNOW THAT?
YOU ALWAYS ASKED ME TO HECKCARE. AS IF IT WAS EASY TOO. IF I COULD FORGET THOSE NASTY COMMENTS AT THE NEXT SECOND, I WON'T HAVE TO ASK YOU TO SHUT THEM UP.

&CAN YOU PROMISE MY GRADES WON'T DROP?
IF I CANNOT BE GET INTO JC OR POLY. I'D RATHER DIE THAN DIE OF SHAME.
DO YOU KNOW HOW CLEVER MY COUSINS ARE? ONE IS GIFTED, ONE STUDY AT NUS HIGH SCHOOL. ONE IS FROM NJC. ANOTHER FROM NUS.
WHAT IF ANGEL CAN'T GET INTO NEITHER JC NOR POLY?
I WILL BE LOOK DOWN, &LAUGHED BY THEM.
I WOULD RATHER DIE, THAN BEING HUMILIATED..

I DON'T DENY THAT I'M SELFISH &I CARE ABOUT MYSELF ONLY. BUT IT'S JUST ONE YEAR. I NEED THAT ONE YEAR BADLY..
YOU'RE NO BETTER TOO, YOU'RE SAME LIKE ME, SELFISH. I DON'T KNOW WHY FOR YOU, IT MUST BE THIS YEAR.
ASK YOU TO GIVE UP A CERTAIN THING. I BET YOU WON'T DO IT...



CAN'T I HAVE A NORMAL TEEN LIFE?
I DIDN'T REALLY ENJOY MY CHILDHOOD. ALL I COULD REMEMBER WAS TUITIONS TUITIONS &TUITIONS.
HAVE YOU ALL EVER WONDER HOW I GOT INTO THE EXPRESS STREAM?
IT'S OF CUS THE HARDWORK &BLOOD I PUT IN.
MY PRIMARY 5 RESULTS WAS SO BAD THAT, I CAN'T EVEN GET INTO THE EXPRESS STREAM.
MY TURNING POINT WAS WHEN I WAS IN PRI 6, WHEN MY RESULTS CAN GET INTO THE EXPRESS STREAM.
OF CUS THERE WAS HARDWORK &OTHER "ELEMENTS" TOO..
HAVE YOU BEEN CANED JUST BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO A MATH QUESTIONS?
I HAVE. MY SIXTH AUNT COACH ME IN MY MATH, HENCE I GET A BAND 1 OR A FOR MATH IN MY PRI 6 LIFE.
ANYWAY, I DON'T RESENT HER. BUT QUITE GLAD THOSE PAIN DIDN'T JUST WENT INTO DRAIN...


ARE THESE THE "HAPPY" LIFE YOU GUYS ARE ENVIOUS OF?


I HATE MY LIFE.
SUCKSUCKSUCK!